Yes, My weight is back up but I am ok with it.
This is such a strange way for me to feel. Like I didn't make my goal of 69kgs but I am Ok. I can see myself at this or less by the time Round 3 is completed in December. I can see myself being a size 12 or less.
I know I have the strength to do it. I have amazing friends (including you cyber ones) and family. Plus an awesome exercise support crew with Matt and the team at my gym. I know I can do it and I will.
I honestly can't wait for Round 3 to open. Registration starts next week. If your thinking about doing it "Just do it". You will gain your health and maybe live a few decades longer. If your not interested in the weight loss side of things. There are 2 other groups which just focus on being lean and strong.
My goal next round is to be at 65kgs (Oh my even just typing that). I have lost over 8kgs this round probably more but I haven't been following the menu this week and I am up a kilo.
It feels good to try on size 12 jeans today! Heck they were tight around the middle but just! I am so close I can feel it. My hair dresser was amazed at how much my body shape has changed and how healthy my hair is now from eating whole food and clean foods. So even though the scales didn't make it to 69kgs. I feel so much better. I must remember this daily and make it my mantra to stay on track for the next round.
If I make it to 65kgs next round (far out Brussels sprouts) I will only be within 5kgs of my initial goal weight. It will also be the weight I was when we went to Bali in 1997! ( I actually gain 5kgs from training before we went).
I feel so much positive and confident and while I am still over weight, I feel less judged by strangers.
I look back at the few photos of have of myself at nearly 100kgs and I do understand why people would be like that. I do hate saying that but I was not in a good place.
So will I post my before and after photos? In my undies or should I keep them to myself? That is the question!
I should also add that I am back at work and covering the lunch shifts. Which means I start either at 10 or 11am until 3 or 4pm. No lunch or meal break. It's tough and I come home starving. If anyone has any suggestions that would be fantastic. As we can't eat in the shop.
Also my husband finally quit his job of nearly 20 years yesterday and I have been on a bit of an emotional eating rollercoaster for the last 72hrs. I am ashamed to admit that I still haven't won my battle with emotional eating. Hopefully I will find the answer soon on how to stop.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Saturday, August 6, 2011
I'm still here!
The past week has been a whirlpool of emotions and exciting new things happening within my family life.
My goal to lose weight and regain my self esteem and re-enter the workforce, has always been the biggest priority. So last week when i saw one of my favourite home ware stores advertising for a casual position, my heart jumped a beat. The old me was saying "It's all too hard and if you go back to work you wont have time left for you!". So I sat on it for 48hrs and then something happened! I walked into the store to find out more about the position and what it involved.
2 days later I had an interview with the area manager and a few days later I started training and as of next week I am on casual shifts which suit me fine. 18 months ago there is no way I would have had the courage to do it. Although I am still 15kgs over weight I felt it was time.
Then my husbands work took another rotten turn. He is now the only person still at the company from the old owners. The new owners have pushed or thrown everyone else out the door and replaced them with cheap and in experienced staff. It's been a terrible time for his self esteem and blood pressure and then he fell apart last week. Finally after 18 years he took some time off work. My husband only takes holidays and all the years I have known him he has hardly taken any sick days. It was good as it turned out a job he applied for weeks ago asked him to come in and he ended up with 2 interviews for this new company and fingers crossed he will be out of the "Hell hole" that he has stayed loyal with.
Even if he takes the new one for 12 months - He will gain some experience its a proper 38 hour week type job not like the one he is currently in. Currently he gets paid for 38 hours but works up to 60 hours for the love of the company.
So back to me! With all the ups and downs. Plus Brodie having some allergy testing done on Tuesday - I personally have felt really drained. I turned up for my Monday Cardio class and my heart just wasn't there. Skipped Tuesday, Worked Wednesday. Missed my cycle class on Thursday and did a "Half arsed" work out. Friday did a better workout. No training on Saturday and did a cycle class today (Sunday).
My eating has been all over the place and with 2 weeks left of the Michelle Bridge Challenge I can see that I am so not going to make my goal weight of 69kgs. Monday/Tuesday to weigh myself again.
My hip and lower back are giving me real grief at the moment and I have booked in to have some Osteo on Tuesday. Sadly my health insurance extras has run out. So it's going to be even harder on the budget until the end of the year.
I am not sure if I have posted about the fantastic Lasagna on the current menu of the Michelle Bridges challenge. I had not eaten any pasta in the 10 odd weeks until this came up. It is so tasty and I will check if I can share the recipe and will post it later.
My goal to lose weight and regain my self esteem and re-enter the workforce, has always been the biggest priority. So last week when i saw one of my favourite home ware stores advertising for a casual position, my heart jumped a beat. The old me was saying "It's all too hard and if you go back to work you wont have time left for you!". So I sat on it for 48hrs and then something happened! I walked into the store to find out more about the position and what it involved.
2 days later I had an interview with the area manager and a few days later I started training and as of next week I am on casual shifts which suit me fine. 18 months ago there is no way I would have had the courage to do it. Although I am still 15kgs over weight I felt it was time.
Then my husbands work took another rotten turn. He is now the only person still at the company from the old owners. The new owners have pushed or thrown everyone else out the door and replaced them with cheap and in experienced staff. It's been a terrible time for his self esteem and blood pressure and then he fell apart last week. Finally after 18 years he took some time off work. My husband only takes holidays and all the years I have known him he has hardly taken any sick days. It was good as it turned out a job he applied for weeks ago asked him to come in and he ended up with 2 interviews for this new company and fingers crossed he will be out of the "Hell hole" that he has stayed loyal with.
Even if he takes the new one for 12 months - He will gain some experience its a proper 38 hour week type job not like the one he is currently in. Currently he gets paid for 38 hours but works up to 60 hours for the love of the company.
So back to me! With all the ups and downs. Plus Brodie having some allergy testing done on Tuesday - I personally have felt really drained. I turned up for my Monday Cardio class and my heart just wasn't there. Skipped Tuesday, Worked Wednesday. Missed my cycle class on Thursday and did a "Half arsed" work out. Friday did a better workout. No training on Saturday and did a cycle class today (Sunday).
My eating has been all over the place and with 2 weeks left of the Michelle Bridge Challenge I can see that I am so not going to make my goal weight of 69kgs. Monday/Tuesday to weigh myself again.
My hip and lower back are giving me real grief at the moment and I have booked in to have some Osteo on Tuesday. Sadly my health insurance extras has run out. So it's going to be even harder on the budget until the end of the year.
I am not sure if I have posted about the fantastic Lasagna on the current menu of the Michelle Bridges challenge. I had not eaten any pasta in the 10 odd weeks until this came up. It is so tasty and I will check if I can share the recipe and will post it later.
One of my new 5pm loves. Onces upon a time it was wine-o-clock then but now I love flavored teas. Plus they are caffine free.
Last weeks weigh in up from 75kgs.
I have signed up again for the next round of MB challenge. I hope with the warmer weather that I will get more motivated to stick to the menu of the program. While I have been 80% following the menu. I haven't had huge weight loss numbers on the weeks that I have swapped food out for things that I do like to eat.
I think anyone who is thinking of joining - Just do it. For $20 a week you get weekly exercise plan (You don't need a gym). Food menu plus loads more. I would be lost without the cyber support that I have from the new friends I have made. I never want to go back to the old me. Each day is still a struggle in some way but always in a positive way.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
75kgs
Like you know I just had to say that!
Off to get my nails done as a reward.
And some food for thought :- Or a laugh which ever mood your in today.
Off to get my nails done as a reward.
And some food for thought :- Or a laugh which ever mood your in today.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
75.4kgs
Yay!!!!
Happy Dance in the bathroom this morning. Yes my dog came running down the hall to see what all the fuss was about. While I was doing happy punches in the air.
My gosh its taken a very long time to finally see a number on the scales that I have not seen in years.
When I started my quest to loose weight last year, I never saw a 75 on the scales.
Well except for the times my silly scales was having a moment or only half of me was on them when it calculated my weight. So that is it - I am NOT going up again. For the last 9 weeks of Michelle Bridges I have had to lose the weight that I had lost last year just to get going again.
May 1st 2010 to Oct - I went from 95+kgs down to 76.9 or something the day I went to the Gold Coast. Then I put on a couple of kilos and then had an operation in December and couldn't exercise and then I slowly started putting on weight again and was back up around 83kgs when I started Michelle Bridges.
So seeing 75.4kgs is new weight that I have lost (finally) Not old weight that I already lost and then put back on again. It is so much harder to lose weight in your 40's seriously - I am killing my butt at gym eating clean and its slow. I would have been a size zero now if I was in my 20's after this cleaning living.
No going back - It proves the program works because this week I had two nights of having take out/dinner out. (Had to no other options) but I made good choices and even had a drink. Wahoo!
Happy Dance in the bathroom this morning. Yes my dog came running down the hall to see what all the fuss was about. While I was doing happy punches in the air.
My gosh its taken a very long time to finally see a number on the scales that I have not seen in years.
When I started my quest to loose weight last year, I never saw a 75 on the scales.
Well except for the times my silly scales was having a moment or only half of me was on them when it calculated my weight. So that is it - I am NOT going up again. For the last 9 weeks of Michelle Bridges I have had to lose the weight that I had lost last year just to get going again.
May 1st 2010 to Oct - I went from 95+kgs down to 76.9 or something the day I went to the Gold Coast. Then I put on a couple of kilos and then had an operation in December and couldn't exercise and then I slowly started putting on weight again and was back up around 83kgs when I started Michelle Bridges.
So seeing 75.4kgs is new weight that I have lost (finally) Not old weight that I already lost and then put back on again. It is so much harder to lose weight in your 40's seriously - I am killing my butt at gym eating clean and its slow. I would have been a size zero now if I was in my 20's after this cleaning living.
No going back - It proves the program works because this week I had two nights of having take out/dinner out. (Had to no other options) but I made good choices and even had a drink. Wahoo!
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Meeting Tommy Hafey
Last night at my gym we had a night with Tommy Hafey. If you have no idea who Tommy is - Watch the video. He is an ex footballer/coach that at nearly 80 still gets up at 5.20am come rain, hail or shine and trains. Even swims in the freezing cold of winter at the beach.
He is just an all round nice guy, straight talking, awesome, motivating great guy.
Just like Michelle's weekly mindset lessons - I walked away pumped.
Actually I felt like I had a "Dali lama" moment. It was like he was talking to me.
If you ever get a chance to see this guy "Just go and do it". He talked about everything from how he goes to schools and motivates the kids to his own goals and challenges he sets.
So I came home and I'm still working through my goals and reading the ones I set at the start of the MB challenge and tweaking them. I haven't really ever gone to a "Motivational" type thing but boy it was just what I needed to get my thoughts back on track and try some new things.
Including better parenting my son. Loads of things that I will post about when I have had time to process everything.
Yesterday I did a killer Circuit class at gym and I was so happy that my little man is helping me get to my classes by getting ready for school super early. We talk so much about "Support Crews" well my little 7 year old is being fantastic. He used to struggle with me leaving every day so much so that I had to stay for 30mins after school had started just to get him settled. Now I leave him at the gate and he walks off to class.
Each time I make sure he is in the middle building before I turn away and my heart strings pull a little. We have come such a long way.
Anyway, off track again. Managed to burn nearly 700 cals which blew me away. I am guessing it was so much because the class was more like boot camp and I hadn't pushed myself really at all that week.
It was like coming home and just what I needed. No gym yesterday as they replaced all of the cardio equipment so it was super exciting to go to gym today to see loads of new shinny treadmills, bike etc.
I made it to Spin class. Boy I love this class especially when Lee or Karen take the class. Its really kick arse without really noticing the time and then suddenly its time for cool down and stretch and I feel on top of the world for completing another spin class. So I kind of did my super session today and ended up burning another 600 plus in the gym. Now my silly Garmen heart rate watch turned it self off so many times I lost track. When I walked out of the gym I had burn over 1000 according to my watch but I think it was way more than that.
I feel totally spent tonight ready for bed by 6pm and honestly love that feeling.
Check out the size of his hands. Now I am only 5ft 1 so Tommy's small compared to todays footy players but those hands. No way a footy was going to slip through them. As I already said He was amazing guy & true gentleman.
And the photo well I can't believe my double chin popped back in for a photo. Thought I had lost it around week 4 of the challenge. Bawahahah!
He is just an all round nice guy, straight talking, awesome, motivating great guy.
Just like Michelle's weekly mindset lessons - I walked away pumped.
Actually I felt like I had a "Dali lama" moment. It was like he was talking to me.
If you ever get a chance to see this guy "Just go and do it". He talked about everything from how he goes to schools and motivates the kids to his own goals and challenges he sets.
So I came home and I'm still working through my goals and reading the ones I set at the start of the MB challenge and tweaking them. I haven't really ever gone to a "Motivational" type thing but boy it was just what I needed to get my thoughts back on track and try some new things.
Including better parenting my son. Loads of things that I will post about when I have had time to process everything.
Yesterday I did a killer Circuit class at gym and I was so happy that my little man is helping me get to my classes by getting ready for school super early. We talk so much about "Support Crews" well my little 7 year old is being fantastic. He used to struggle with me leaving every day so much so that I had to stay for 30mins after school had started just to get him settled. Now I leave him at the gate and he walks off to class.
Each time I make sure he is in the middle building before I turn away and my heart strings pull a little. We have come such a long way.
Anyway, off track again. Managed to burn nearly 700 cals which blew me away. I am guessing it was so much because the class was more like boot camp and I hadn't pushed myself really at all that week.
It was like coming home and just what I needed. No gym yesterday as they replaced all of the cardio equipment so it was super exciting to go to gym today to see loads of new shinny treadmills, bike etc.
I made it to Spin class. Boy I love this class especially when Lee or Karen take the class. Its really kick arse without really noticing the time and then suddenly its time for cool down and stretch and I feel on top of the world for completing another spin class. So I kind of did my super session today and ended up burning another 600 plus in the gym. Now my silly Garmen heart rate watch turned it self off so many times I lost track. When I walked out of the gym I had burn over 1000 according to my watch but I think it was way more than that.
I feel totally spent tonight ready for bed by 6pm and honestly love that feeling.
Check out the size of his hands. Now I am only 5ft 1 so Tommy's small compared to todays footy players but those hands. No way a footy was going to slip through them. As I already said He was amazing guy & true gentleman.
And the photo well I can't believe my double chin popped back in for a photo. Thought I had lost it around week 4 of the challenge. Bawahahah!
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Refocusing and getting on the with the job.
The job of weight loss and the reason why I slug it out at the gym.
* Health
* Healthy people live longer
*Happier
*Get a job (well once I am at goal).
*Be a better parent, wife, sister, friend etc etc.
*Fit into clothes without having to tug or stretch things.
*To be able to just do it!
Time to stop the B/S and get back on the program.
So this week my goal is not to worry about this weeks weigh in day and just focus on each day and eating well. Next week TTOTM is due so I am not even going to think about getting on the scales (no I wont shake on that)....
As I don't have a printer I have hand written my daily/weekly menu and swapped the things that don't appeal to me for foods that I know I like.
I am also starting a new challenge at my gym that starts tomorrow and will go until the middle of September which will work out perfectly with the next Michelle Bridges challenge. I have no idea what the gym challenge is all about but its something about around the world in 88 days.
Tomorrow night kicks off the challenge with Tommy Haffy the nearly 80 year old former Collingwood football coach. Who is an amazing fit inspirational man. So I am looking forward to that.
My gym has also brought in new cardio gym equipment as of tomorrow and I am stoked to be trying out some new equipment.
Last week of the school holidays was an epic fail for me but next week won't be.
Aiming for the 75kgs and I can do it.
(No photos today) Will have to come up with something creative ;-)
* Health
* Healthy people live longer
*Happier
*Get a job (well once I am at goal).
*Be a better parent, wife, sister, friend etc etc.
*Fit into clothes without having to tug or stretch things.
*To be able to just do it!
Time to stop the B/S and get back on the program.
So this week my goal is not to worry about this weeks weigh in day and just focus on each day and eating well. Next week TTOTM is due so I am not even going to think about getting on the scales (no I wont shake on that)....
As I don't have a printer I have hand written my daily/weekly menu and swapped the things that don't appeal to me for foods that I know I like.
I am also starting a new challenge at my gym that starts tomorrow and will go until the middle of September which will work out perfectly with the next Michelle Bridges challenge. I have no idea what the gym challenge is all about but its something about around the world in 88 days.
Tomorrow night kicks off the challenge with Tommy Haffy the nearly 80 year old former Collingwood football coach. Who is an amazing fit inspirational man. So I am looking forward to that.
My gym has also brought in new cardio gym equipment as of tomorrow and I am stoked to be trying out some new equipment.
Last week of the school holidays was an epic fail for me but next week won't be.
Aiming for the 75kgs and I can do it.
(No photos today) Will have to come up with something creative ;-)
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Life during the school holidays
Week 8 going into week 9 on the Michelle Bridges challenge and I am still stuck at 76+ something kilos.
This is not due to the program. It's due to me not being organised, stuck at home and crap weather during the school holidays. Lots of unplanned unforseen things have happened like hubby working on the weekends and going to the football early and all day Sundays two weeks in a row.
I have gone to gym probably 4 times a week pretty crap and yeah I probably could have gone a bit more. But I figure that my son at 7 years old is not going to be wanting to hang out with me in a few years and I need to enjoy just being with him. He has gone into the creche a few times for me while I worked out. He is a good boy but thats about it.
I have barely followed a whole day of the MN weekly menu for the past week.
Actually truthly I sabotaged myself. Last week I did stick to my diet really well killed myself at gym to make any time in the gym burn as much as I could. Weighed in on Wednesday, not Thursday so come Friday I was sure I had finally hit my goal of 75kilos. Well I nearly died when I was still 76+ kilos. That was it I fell off the wagon HUGE TIME!. Pretty stupid really!
Looking back at what I have just written even sounds stupid. We have only 4 weeks or less of this challenge. I doubt I am going to hit 14kgs but I am going to aim for 10kgs. I have signed up for the next challenge and that will keep me on track to keep loosing weight until the summer.
This summer is going to be my lightest summer. Loosing this weight has taken a very very long time. If you had asked me 1st May 2010 that I would still be struggling to get down to around 57kgs in 2011 I would have laughed. I was meant to be at goal last Christmas.
Sure parts of me feel a bit disappointed when I read in the forums people loosing 3kgs a week!
Maybe I need to pull my finger out and work out a bit harder. Next week school is back and I will have more time to myself to work out more.
My goal this week is to write out my weekly food menu. (I don't have a printer) and write out the 9 weeks of menu's & recipes.
My other goal is to get into the 75kgs by following the menu from tomorrow on wards. I can do it.
Here is a stat of our world rating on weight gain. If this doesnt make me peddle a little harder this week.
The Top 30 Obese Nations
| Rank | Countries  | Amount  | |
|---|---|---|---|
| # 1 | United States: | 30.6% | |
| # 2 | Mexico: | 24.2% | |
| # 3 | United Kingdom: | 23% | |
| # 4 | Slovakia: | 22.4% | |
| # 5 | Greece: | 21.9% | |
| # 6 | Australia: | 21.7% | |
| # 7 | New Zealand: | 20.9% | |
| # 8 | Hungary: | 18.8% | |
| # 9 | Luxembourg: | 18.4% | |
| # 10 | Czech Republic: | 14.8% | |
| # 11 | Canada: | 14.3% | |
| # 12 | Spain: | 13.1% | |
| # 13 | Ireland: | 13% | |
| # 14 | Germany: | 12.9% | |
| = 15 | Portugal: | 12.8% | |
| = 15 | Finland: | 12.8% | |
| # 17 | Iceland: | 12.4% | |
| # 18 | Turkey: | 12% | |
| # 19 | Belgium: | 11.7% | |
| # 20 | Netherlands: | 10% | |
| # 21 | Sweden: | 9.7% | |
| # 22 | Denmark: | 9.5% | |
| # 23 | France: | 9.4% | |
| # 24 | Austria: | 9.1% | |
| # 25 | Italy: | 8.5% | |
| # 26 | Norway: | 8.3% | |
| # 27 | Switzerland: | 7.7% | |
| = 28 | Japan: | 3.2% | |
| = 28 | Korea, South: | 3.2% |
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