75.4kgs

Yay!!!!

Happy Dance in the bathroom this morning.  Yes my dog came running down the hall to see what all the fuss was about.  While I was doing happy punches in the air.

My gosh its taken a very long time to finally see a number on the scales that I have not seen in years.

When I started my quest to loose weight last year, I never saw a 75 on the scales.

Well except for the times my silly scales was having a moment or only half of me was on them when it calculated my weight.   So that is it - I am NOT going up again.   For the last 9 weeks of Michelle Bridges I have had to lose the weight that I had lost last year just to get going again.

May 1st 2010 to Oct - I went from 95+kgs down to 76.9 or something the day I went to the Gold Coast.  Then I put on a couple of kilos and then had an operation in December and couldn't exercise and then I slowly started putting on weight again and was back up around 83kgs when I started Michelle Bridges.

So seeing 75.4kgs is new weight that I have lost (finally) Not old weight that I already lost and then put back on again.   It is so much harder to lose weight in your 40's seriously - I am killing my butt at gym eating clean and its slow.  I would have been a size zero now if I was in my 20's after this cleaning living.

No going back - It proves the program works because this week I had two nights of having take out/dinner out. (Had to no other options) but I made good choices and even had a drink.  Wahoo!

Refocusing and getting on the with the job.

The job of weight loss and the reason why I slug it out at the gym.

* Health
* Healthy people live longer
*Happier
*Get a job (well once I am at goal).
*Be a better parent, wife, sister, friend etc etc.
*Fit into clothes without having to tug or stretch things.
*To be able to just do it!

Time to stop the B/S and get back on the program.

So this week my goal is not to worry about this weeks weigh in day and just focus on each day and eating well. Next week TTOTM is due so I am not even going to think about getting on the scales (no I wont shake on that)....

As I don't have a printer I have hand written my daily/weekly menu and swapped the things that don't appeal to me for foods that I know I like.

I am also starting a new challenge at my gym that starts tomorrow and will go until the middle of September which will work out perfectly with the next Michelle Bridges challenge.  I have no idea what the gym challenge is all about but its something about around the world in 88 days.  

Tomorrow night kicks off the challenge with Tommy Haffy the nearly 80 year old former Collingwood football coach.  Who is an amazing fit inspirational man.  So I am looking forward to that.

My gym has also brought in new cardio gym equipment as of tomorrow and I am stoked to be trying out some new equipment.

Last week of the school holidays was an epic fail for me but next week won't be.

Aiming for the 75kgs and I can do it.

(No photos today) Will have to come up with something creative ;-)

Happy Dance!!!!! 76.6kgs

Today is officially not weigh in day that was yesterday (77.2kgs) as of the 29th June.

I have to be honest and say for some reason (insert long moaning voice), on  Wednesdays, I weigh heavier than any other day of the week.  I knew and felt like I was a lot lighter so,  I weighed myself again today and in my sleepy haze of 7am I cursed the scales for being screwed up.  Until I realised it said 76.6kgs not 77.6kgs.

I actually can not really remember a time I was 76kgs - I remember way back in 1999 I was around this weight and hated everything about myself.  It was around that time I started taking a prescription medication to lose weight (you know the one - some call it legal speed).  It was terrible terrible stuff and I could only last a few days and then would have to take a break and sleep for a few days straight.  The upside to taking it was that my house was clean because I was so "Pumped up" and had to be doing something but I couldn't sleep and I was dam snappy!  I am amazed that my then boyfriend wanted to marry me! Lucky he did in 2000.

So what else has been happening.

• I have reached all of my 1st month goals. 
• To lose 5kgs. 
•  Attempt my first cycle class. 
• Up my level of fitness.
•  To be able to row 2kms in under 10mins.

I can also add running to this list as I have now gone on to start running week 2.  Which is basically running for 1 1/2 mins walking for 2mins.  

I love love love cycle.  There it is out loud.  I went back to Pump last week and put my neck out but I still loved it and will be back next week.

I walked out of my first ever class as it was just not going to burn the calories and it was so not a circuit class.  It was like doing all style warm up exercises at a retirement home.  

I have had to pull out my old bra's etc that I had grown out of years ago and some are now too big........

I need to go shopping for new clothes.  I am still around a 14-16 a long way off 18/20 + that I used to be.

I have moments of "Man I look good!" to "Shit I am still fat and ugly!".  I was really surprised when I heard my innerself talking so badly to me.

I feel like the  Michelle Bridges program has finally "Clicked" this week.  While I have been chopping & changing some of the meals around its still working.

I know that my journey is going to be a lot slower than some of the other people on the challenge.  That's OK.  I need to live a little and eat some cake when its my Birthday without feeling guilty that " I must eat light" for the rest of the week, while beating my head against the wall.   I know now, that I need to just move on to the next day.

I am certainly a lot fitter but I know there is still a long way to go there.  I am still struggling with pain but with the help of the Osteopath I am seeing we have the pain under control.

My goal this week is to be in the 75kgs - Far out!!!! 

I think I had stalled my weight loss because I was basically loosing the weight that I had already lost last year and couldn't see beyond that.  Hope that makes sense.  So now that I am in my new weight loss numbers I finally feel like I am now working towards my new goal.

Challenges coming up school holidays, snacking and lack of "Me" exercise time.  What time I do get at the gym will have to be used burning up calories - Because my puppy needs to be walked most nights I have to share my evenings with her and let hubby and puppy go for walkies.  I hope that maybe I can get a few days in walking her during the day with my son so that I can go to gym at night.

You will need to tilt your head to the side for this one as the photo is the wrong way up!

This is my latest fav meal.  Its from Michelle Bridges cookbook its Tuna mornay and I just love it.  Simple easy and very filling.  I don't bother having it with rice anymore.  I just use Iceberg lettuce to wrap it up in.

Well must head to bed - I have a boot camp style circuit class in the morning that I want to get to in time for.