Tuesday, October 4, 2011

75.2kgs. Finally

Today I finally made into the 75kgs - After many many months of not being able to kick it up and break through I am there.  Now only 5.5kgs to go to be in the 60's.  I have to push out any neg thoughts and just do it.

Finally getting my shit together! - Week 4

Hubby is now at work and we are in week 2 of the school holidays.

I feel like I will never find my routine and "Me time".  This week has been a whole lot better.  I have cut my work hours down to just 3 days last week and 4 this week.  Makes a huge difference to my energy levels and being able to eat clean.

It's a struggle to not get hungry between 11-3pm but I have tried to stay strong and just have a protein bar or Body wise bar and keep up the water.   Then get home eat my lunch etc and carry on for the rest of the day.  I can live with that.

Tomorrow is weigh in day and I am hopeful that I am either back down to 76kgs or under.  I am quietly hopeful that I will final be in the 75's.    After nearly 3months I still haven't broken through that but I haven't gone up hugely either.

My work commitements have stopped me from catching up with the Vic Eastern suburbs crew.  Its like everytime something is organised be it a Sunday or a Saturday its always the same day I have been rostered on to work.  I love being at work when I am there but its eating into my social life.

Ange from Scrapware has come on board and trained with Matt my PT from Elevate your life.  She has done freaking amazing stuff with just using the MB training and cookbooks.  Ange is just part of the crew now, even heading to Sydney for the finale.  Which I am still considering going but it might be out of my price range. I would have to buy new clothes and accomodation etc something that I have never just done for myself since being married.  I feel kind of guilty! I don't really know anyone ~Plus work of course coming into Christmas etc. busy times.

I have a new favourite breakfast is smoked salmon with a poached egg. Well when I get the egg to not mess up.  I like it to look like I am have just ordered it in from a cafe.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Michelle Bridges Blog challenge

Shrinkingkat from the forum has started up a challenge.  I like to blog but often feel like I have to have something exciting to blog about so this will be a nice change and challenge - So here we go.

1. Describe yourself in 25 words or less. You can get straight to the point - or bring your creativity into play.    Mum, Wife - Exercise and Arty crafty person wanna be. Loud, proud and hopefully a good friend. Determined to be Me. Messy & forgetful.

2. What brings you to 12wbt? Getting fitter? Losing weight? (Gaining weight??) Are you first timer, a repeat offender??  This is my 2nd official round - Although I have signed up for 3. I was injured just before the last round of 2010 started and didn't start.  I started my weight loss journey on the 1st May 2010 and I am half way there so I need to keep going.  I know the program works & it keeps me accountable for my actions with each weekly weigh in.  I want to be fit and lean and a sometimes runner.

3. Why do you blog??  It's kind of like my on line diary.  I can look back and see where I was emotionally and with my challenge journey if I am having an emotional moment - I can take inspiration from how far I have come.  It makes me responsible for my own actions as well.  I hope that its interesting enough to motivate people who read my blog and maybe make some cyber friends along the way. Plus I like to just ramble so it keeps the house quiet while I'm blogging cause my lips aren't flapping with talking.

4. Who is your biggest inspiration in life and why (doesn't have to be weight loss) Conceiving my son after years of infertility and several rounds of IVF.

5. What things in life bring you the most joy? Blue skies on a warm Spring day Especially after it has been grey for days on end.  Rainbows (yes I know a big kid at heart). Hanging out my little Son and Hubby, Getting to gym and smashing a good session. Being around my inspirational friends who are traveling the same journey in life.  Laying on the beach especially at Broadbeach Queensland and soaking in the blue water and clean sands. I just love that place. 

6.What do you think your greatest challenge is going to be this round? Me and my brain! (Cause I kind of stop myself from breaking through the 75kg on my scales)  My body as I have a back and hip problem that no one seems to be able to fix without some sort of surgery. 

7. What are you most excited about 12wbt?   Getting to December and being the lightest and best I have been in years.  Supporting others and watching them achieve their goals along the way.  Buying my reward goal of new "small" clothes.  ( I have so many small or big small clothes). Oh and donating them to the Op shop.
8. And what scares the pants off you? Loosing sight of my goals, my so called casual job getting in the way of me achieving. Or not achieving what I set out to do. Oh and totally not related to the Challenge - I am scared to death of balloons. I hate them make me want to barf when one touches me or someone rubs one.
9. Tell me - right now - today - how do you feel about exercise in no more than 10 words. Addicted,  wish my body and time could give me more. 

10. Complete this sentence - in 12 weeks time - on the last day of 12wbt I am going to be feeling ____________________.  Amazed at how far I have come in 12 short weeks.  I will be pumped and nearly at my goal weight.

First weigh in 76.4kgs

All of last week I was 77.6kgs - It did go up higher than that earlier in the week but I will take it from my weigh in on Sunday.

Today is our first offical weigh in and I am back down to 76.4kgs.  So now I am around what I was at the end of last challenge.  I do feel lighter than that and I will be honest I had some microwave popcorn last night which is probably full of salt and I retained some of that today for the weigh in.

Now I am super proud of myself as I have managed to go to gym every day this week.  Yesterday I started work at 8am moving the shop around.  Hard physical work and I was completely knacked when I got home at 5pm.  But I reminded myself that I actually had more energy left in the tank and I felt much better than I did two weeks earlier when I had the flu.

So I took myself off to do a spin class and burnt 500+ calories while I was at it.  I was so pumped afterwards that I struggled to fall off to sleep even though I was so utterly exhausted but I felt fantastic that "I could do it".

I am back to work today hopefully it will only be 4 hours and I will get my butt off for a super session with Matt tonight at Yarra Road, Primary school.

In the past year that I have been trying to loose weight I have not dropped into the 75kgs bracket.  I am so close that I feel if I do stick with the program this week I can smash it.  My brain has held me back for so long as its been my mini goal all along to get into and under 75kgs.  I am going to do it this week.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Michelle Bridges Round 3 starts tomorrow

I haven't had time to think or organise myself to even get excited about the next challenge.

However, today after doing my fitness test and taking my photos - I can feel the excitement returning.

I am still a little worried about how I am going to fit my exercise and eating in with my job.

I will take one day at a time.  I have to put myself first however we need to have the extra income coming in as well.  My job hours are all over the place and while I might not start until 11am some days - I don't think I have time to do school drop off and get to gym, shower etc  and get to work in time.  So on days like that I guess I will have to go at night time.

 May 2011

September 2011.

Never thought I would put my photos up in the nuddy! But I have - Although I only lost 9kgs the last round and my two photos are at different angles I can see a difference.  Lets freaking hope the next photos are prettier!

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Oh man I am so missing my routine.

I am feeling better but still not running at 100%.  Talking about running I did a smashing work out on Monday.  First one where I felt well enough to push myself since I hurt my calf muscle again.

It felt so good to be back in the gym ~ it was like visiting an old friend  and having loads of belly laughs.  I felt so happy for the rest of the day.  When I work out I eat well.  When I don't work out I tend to fall off the wagon.  There you go I said it out loud.

Sadly there is an elderly gent that is at gym every single day of the week.  He always comes up and says "Hellow" I have never not seen him at gym.  I think his name is Doug.   The last time I went to gym 2 weeks ago I noticed that I hadn't seen him for a week.  Monday I realised he still wasn't there.  I asked one of the trainers and he is really really sick.  Doug is inspirational.  He just gets up and goes to gym every day.

He keeps strong and healthy and he is in his 80's.  I hope he gets well enough to get back in the gym.  I miss his daily chats as short as they might be some days.  I miss his "hellos".

Being sick and having hubby home and working and doing school excursions ~ I am so out of sorts, routine and healthy food options.

I will admit that I still haven't been eating as well as I should.  I have even had a glass of wine or two this week.

And yesterday I was running to catch the school bus as they where waiting on us.  Just took off to do a little jog and "Boing!!!" I heard my calf muscle go again.  I can still walk which is so much better than the previous two times but that is it I'm over it.  So tomorrow I am off to have scans done and get to the bottom of this.

I want to be running again and I want to be able to get into the 60's by Christmas.

I have my rooster for the next 2 weeks full on but at least I can start planning my eating better around it.  Although I am not sure about my exercise part of it.  The gym challenge has fallen off the wagon.  Its week 7 and I just can't keep up with it due to the lack of exercise.

So I am still 76 kilos and need to pull my finger out and get working.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011


I am as sick as a dog with some sort of virus thing.  I knew with everything going on in my life that I wasn't eating properly and then with my calf injury, I wasn't getting to the gym.

I know the food eating is the main factor  With work etc and not having my routine I wasn't eating clean foods so bam! I am so sick.  Lets hope hubby doesn't get it because we all know about man flu being so much more painful for men!

I was really surprised that my weight wasn't through the roof  It's been so long since I have weighed myself and its that time of the month as well.  I few lunch dates and dinner's out and my weight is still around the same

Today I am going to share a Facebook comment from the lovely Kelly who has lost a stack of weight on the Michelle Bridges program and has gone on to be a PT and motivator.

10 signs you emotionally eat
1. You eat when you arn't hungry
2. You feel hungry suddenly for no reason
3. You turn to food after/during emotional times
4. You eat when bored
5. You eat until you are uncomfortably full
6. You eat alone & are embarassed about what/how much you eat
7. You eat without thinking & realise how much you have eaten when you're finished
8. You feel disgusted, depressed & guilty after eating
9. You arn't satisfied after eating
10. You always think about food

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Re-capping my week.

Woow another week has flown by so quickly and so much has happened.

Didn't make it to gym once last week and now have two weeks of my gym challenge that I have to catch up on.

Brodie was sick with a cold and chest infection and I was still limping around.  Worked 4 days Brodie was home 4 days and as of Thursday my husband is now home for 5 weeks until he starts the new job.

Lots happened last week with hubbies work - I won't go into it as its happened and we have to move forward because that is the reason why he left.

We are also down to a one car family and I must say its already driving me nuts.  As I need my car when I want my car!

I woke yesterday to a terrible sore throat and I am only function at 50% and my mouth is full of ulcers  so I am guessing that due to the stress, not eating right my body is so very run down.

Today I made it to gym just to try out my leg as I walked to school today including the hill that always gives me troubles and I realised I wasn't hurting.  Gym was OK only burn 275cals in 1 hour but I wasn't well or there to push myself.  Just to see what I could do.

The weather is simply stunning at the moment.  Beautiful sunny late winter days.  It makes me feel so good to feel the warmth of the sun.  I do get a little bit down with dark raining days.  I am a Spring early summer kind of chick!

So thats about it in my world.  Sad that I didn't get to Queensland for the finale of the Michelle Bridges challenge.  Glad to have a happy household again although we are all sick and today I went to our local Viet cafe for lunch with my main man.

I had to try this today - Its Vietnamese coffee...... Super sweet & strong.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

The Secret to Weight Loss

Eat less, move more?

But I guess you already know that.........

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Round 3 of the Michelle Bridge 12WBT

Life this week has been busy and full on.  But we are all happy and reasonably happy!

This week saw me start working at Matchbox which is super exciting for me.  I adore home wares and its right up my ally.  I had been tossing up the idea of going back into Tupperware and I had been approached only a week ago for me to rejoin.   However, at the time I just couldn't see myself working a bit here and a little bit there.   Although I am only a casual at Matchbox - I have a 2 week roster so I have an idea of when I am  scheduled in.

The downside is that I am working over lunch time.  Sometimes starting at 10am and working until 3pm.  So it is totally "Not" awesome for my diet or my tummy.  So far I have managed but my weight has gone up rather than down in the last week.

Last week also saw me damage my calf muscle again.  It's weird because I am reasonable OK to walk while I am at work.  It must be something to do with the flat floor.  Actually I thought standing on my feet for so long and walking around that I would burn the calories.  Sadly its so not happening.

So I haven't been to gym this week - I had planned to go today however Brodie and I ended up at the Doctors because he has a chest infection and I have a sinus one.  

I plan on doing some water aerobic tomorrow or just like gym work until I feel confident that I can put some weight back on my calf muscle.

Today is also the opening of Round 3 of the Michelle Bridges 12wbt.   Right at this very moment, I haven't thought too much about setting goals etc.  Mainly because I just feel so utterly exhausted.

I might also have to come to the realisation that this body wasn't built to run...........

Sadly today I realised that I forgot to measure myself and take my end of challenge photos and upload them before the close of Round 2.   I kind of lost the plot towards the end.  Maybe I was just too focused for the first 8 weeks but then again the last few weeks have been a pretty emotional time in my little house.

While I wait for the next round to start - I still have the challenge at my gym.  Thankfully, I can take my time in completing the required events before the 10 weeks are up seeing I am injured.  Can't wait to get back in the gym!  No I really do mean it.

So if you have been thinking of joining up to the Michelle Bridges challenge - Just do it - I may be the best impulse buy you make this year. 

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Round 2 final week. 76.2kgs

Yes,  My weight is back up but I am ok with it.

This is such a strange way for me to feel.  Like I didn't make my goal of 69kgs but I am Ok.  I can see myself at this or less by the time Round 3 is completed in December.  I can see myself being a size 12 or less.

I know I have the strength to do it.  I have amazing friends (including you cyber ones) and family. Plus an awesome exercise support crew with Matt and the team at my gym.  I know I can do it and I will.

I honestly can't wait for Round 3 to open.  Registration starts next week.  If your thinking about doing it "Just do it".  You will gain your health and maybe live a few decades longer.  If your not interested in the weight loss side of things.  There are 2 other groups which just focus on being lean and strong.

My goal next round is to be at 65kgs (Oh my even just typing that). I have lost over 8kgs this round probably more but I haven't been following the menu this week and I am up a kilo.

It feels good to try on size 12 jeans today!  Heck they were tight around the middle but just! I am so close I can feel it.  My hair dresser was amazed at how much my body shape has changed and how healthy my hair is now from eating whole food and clean foods.   So even though the scales didn't make it to 69kgs.  I feel so much better.  I must remember this daily and make it my mantra to stay on track for the next round.

If I make it to 65kgs next round (far out Brussels sprouts) I will only be within 5kgs of my initial goal weight.  It will also be the weight I was when we went to Bali in 1997! ( I actually gain 5kgs from training before we went).

I feel so much positive and confident and while I am still over weight, I feel less judged by strangers.

I look back at the few photos of have of myself at nearly 100kgs and I do understand why people would be like that.   I do hate saying that but I was not in a good place.

So will I post my before and after photos?  In my undies or should I keep them to myself? That is the question!

I should also add that I am back at work and covering the lunch shifts. Which means I start either at 10 or 11am until 3 or 4pm.  No lunch or meal break.  It's tough and I come home starving.  If anyone has any suggestions that would be fantastic.  As we can't eat in the shop.

Also my husband finally quit his job of nearly 20 years yesterday and I have been on a bit of an emotional eating rollercoaster for the last 72hrs.  I am ashamed to admit that I still haven't won my battle with emotional eating. Hopefully I will find the answer soon on how to stop.

Saturday, August 6, 2011

I'm still here!

The past week has been a whirlpool of emotions and exciting new things happening within my family life.

My goal to lose weight and regain my self esteem and re-enter the workforce, has always been the biggest priority.  So last week when i saw one of my favourite home ware stores advertising for a casual position, my heart jumped a beat.  The old me was saying "It's all too hard and if you go back to work you wont have time left for you!".   So I sat on it for 48hrs and then something happened!  I walked into the store to find out more about the position and what it involved.  

2 days later I had an interview with the area manager and a few days later I started training and as of next week I am on casual shifts which suit me fine.    18 months ago there is no way I would have had the courage to do it. Although I am still 15kgs over weight I felt it was time.

Then my husbands work took another rotten turn.  He is now the only person still at the company from the old owners.  The new owners have pushed or thrown everyone else out the door and replaced them with cheap and in experienced staff.  It's been a terrible time for his self esteem and blood pressure and then he fell apart last week.  Finally after 18 years he took some time off work.  My husband only takes holidays and all the years I have known him he has hardly taken any sick days.   It was good as it turned out a job he applied for weeks ago asked him to come in and he ended up with 2 interviews for this new company and fingers crossed he will be out of the "Hell hole" that he has stayed loyal with.  

Even if he takes the new one for 12 months - He will gain some experience its a proper 38 hour week type job not like the one he is currently in.  Currently he gets paid for 38 hours but works up to 60 hours for the love of the company.

So back to me!  With all the ups and downs.  Plus Brodie having some allergy testing done on Tuesday - I personally have felt really drained.  I turned up for my Monday Cardio class and my heart just wasn't there.  Skipped Tuesday, Worked Wednesday. Missed my cycle class on Thursday and did a "Half arsed" work out. Friday did a better workout.  No training on Saturday and did a cycle class today (Sunday).

My eating has been all over the place and with 2 weeks left of the Michelle Bridge Challenge I can see that I am so not going to make my goal weight of 69kgs.    Monday/Tuesday to weigh myself again.

My hip and lower back are giving me real grief at the moment and I have booked in to have some Osteo on Tuesday.  Sadly my health insurance extras has run out.  So it's going to be even harder on the budget until the end of the year.

I am not sure if I have posted about the fantastic Lasagna on the current menu of the Michelle Bridges challenge.  I had not eaten any pasta in the 10 odd weeks until this came up.  It is so tasty and I will check if I can share the recipe and will post it later.

One of my new 5pm loves. Onces upon a time it was wine-o-clock then but now I love flavored teas. Plus they are caffine free.

Last weeks weigh in up from 75kgs. 

I have signed up again for the next round of MB challenge.  I hope with the warmer weather that I will get more motivated to stick to the menu of the program.  While I have been 80% following the menu.  I haven't had huge weight loss numbers on the weeks that I have swapped food out for things that I do like to eat.

I think anyone who is thinking of joining - Just do it.  For $20 a week you get weekly exercise plan (You don't need a gym). Food menu plus loads more.  I would be lost without the cyber support that I have from the new friends I have made.  I never want to go back to the old me.  Each day is still a struggle in some way but always in a positive way.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011


Like you know I just had to say that!

Off to get my nails done as a reward.

And some food for thought :- Or a laugh which ever mood your in today.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011



Happy Dance in the bathroom this morning.  Yes my dog came running down the hall to see what all the fuss was about.  While I was doing happy punches in the air.

My gosh its taken a very long time to finally see a number on the scales that I have not seen in years.

When I started my quest to loose weight last year, I never saw a 75 on the scales.

Well except for the times my silly scales was having a moment or only half of me was on them when it calculated my weight.   So that is it - I am NOT going up again.   For the last 9 weeks of Michelle Bridges I have had to lose the weight that I had lost last year just to get going again.

May 1st 2010 to Oct - I went from 95+kgs down to 76.9 or something the day I went to the Gold Coast.  Then I put on a couple of kilos and then had an operation in December and couldn't exercise and then I slowly started putting on weight again and was back up around 83kgs when I started Michelle Bridges.

So seeing 75.4kgs is new weight that I have lost (finally) Not old weight that I already lost and then put back on again.   It is so much harder to lose weight in your 40's seriously - I am killing my butt at gym eating clean and its slow.  I would have been a size zero now if I was in my 20's after this cleaning living.

No going back - It proves the program works because this week I had two nights of having take out/dinner out. (Had to no other options) but I made good choices and even had a drink.  Wahoo!

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Meeting Tommy Hafey

Last night at my gym we had a night with Tommy Hafey.  If you have no idea who Tommy is - Watch the video. He is an ex footballer/coach that at nearly 80 still gets up at 5.20am come rain, hail or shine and trains. Even swims in the freezing cold of winter at the beach.

He is just an all round nice guy, straight talking, awesome, motivating great guy.

Just like Michelle's weekly mindset lessons - I walked away pumped.

Actually I felt like I had a "Dali lama" moment.  It was like he was talking to me.

If you ever get a chance to see this guy "Just go and do it".  He talked about everything from how he goes to schools and motivates the kids to his own goals and challenges he sets.

So I came home and I'm still working through my goals and reading the ones I set at the start of the MB challenge and tweaking them.   I haven't really ever gone to a "Motivational" type thing but boy it was just what I needed to get my thoughts back on track and try some new things.

Including better parenting my son.  Loads of things that I will post about when I have had time to process everything.

Yesterday I did a killer Circuit class at gym and I was so happy that my little man is helping me get to my classes by getting ready for school super early.  We talk so much about "Support Crews" well my little 7 year old is being fantastic.   He used to struggle with me leaving every day so much so that I had to stay for 30mins after school had started just to get him settled.  Now I leave him at the gate and he walks off to class.

Each time I make sure he is in the middle building before I turn away and my heart strings pull a little.  We have come such a long way.

Anyway, off track again.  Managed to burn nearly 700 cals which blew me away.  I am guessing it was so much because the class was more like boot camp and I hadn't pushed myself really at all that week.

It was like coming home and just what I needed.  No gym yesterday as they replaced all of the cardio equipment so it was super exciting to go to gym today to see loads of new shinny treadmills, bike etc.

I made it to Spin class.  Boy I love this class especially when Lee or Karen take the class.  Its really kick arse  without really noticing the time and then suddenly its time for cool down and stretch and I feel on top of the world for completing another spin class.  So I kind of did my super session today and ended up burning another 600 plus in the gym.  Now my silly Garmen heart rate watch turned it self off so many times I lost track.  When I walked out of the gym I had burn over 1000 according to my watch but I think it was way more than that.

I feel totally spent tonight ready for bed by 6pm and honestly love that feeling.

Check out the size of his hands.  Now I am only 5ft 1 so Tommy's small compared to todays footy players but those hands.  No way a footy was going to slip through them.  As I already said He was amazing guy & true gentleman.

And the photo well I can't believe my double chin popped back in for a photo.  Thought I had lost it around week 4 of the challenge.  Bawahahah!

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Refocusing and getting on the with the job.

The job of weight loss and the reason why I slug it out at the gym.

* Health
* Healthy people live longer
*Get a job (well once I am at goal).
*Be a better parent, wife, sister, friend etc etc.
*Fit into clothes without having to tug or stretch things.
*To be able to just do it!

Time to stop the B/S and get back on the program.

So this week my goal is not to worry about this weeks weigh in day and just focus on each day and eating well. Next week TTOTM is due so I am not even going to think about getting on the scales (no I wont shake on that)....

As I don't have a printer I have hand written my daily/weekly menu and swapped the things that don't appeal to me for foods that I know I like.

I am also starting a new challenge at my gym that starts tomorrow and will go until the middle of September which will work out perfectly with the next Michelle Bridges challenge.  I have no idea what the gym challenge is all about but its something about around the world in 88 days.  

Tomorrow night kicks off the challenge with Tommy Haffy the nearly 80 year old former Collingwood football coach.  Who is an amazing fit inspirational man.  So I am looking forward to that.

My gym has also brought in new cardio gym equipment as of tomorrow and I am stoked to be trying out some new equipment.

Last week of the school holidays was an epic fail for me but next week won't be.

Aiming for the 75kgs and I can do it.

(No photos today) Will have to come up with something creative ;-)

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Life during the school holidays

Week 8 going into week 9 on the Michelle Bridges challenge and I am still stuck at 76+ something kilos.
This is not due to the program.  It's due to me not being organised, stuck at home and crap weather during the school holidays.  Lots of unplanned unforseen things have happened like hubby working on the weekends and going to the football early and all day Sundays two weeks in a row.
I have gone to gym probably 4 times a week pretty crap and yeah I probably could have gone a bit more.  But I figure that my son at 7 years old is not going to be wanting to hang out with me in a few years and I need to enjoy just being with him.  He has gone into the creche a few times for me while I worked out.  He is a good boy but thats about it. 
I have barely followed a whole day of the MN weekly menu for the past week.

Actually truthly I sabotaged myself.  Last week I did stick to my diet really well killed myself at gym to make any time in the gym burn as much as I could.  Weighed in on Wednesday, not Thursday so come Friday I was sure I had finally hit my goal of 75kilos.  Well I nearly died when I was still 76+ kilos.  That was it I fell off the wagon HUGE TIME!.  Pretty stupid really!
Looking back at what I have just written even sounds stupid.  We have only 4 weeks or less of this challenge.  I doubt I am going to hit 14kgs but I am going to aim for 10kgs.   I have signed up for the next challenge and that will keep me on track to keep loosing weight until the summer.
This summer is going to be my lightest summer.  Loosing this weight has taken a very very long time.  If you had asked me 1st May 2010 that I would still be struggling to get down to around 57kgs in 2011 I would have laughed.  I was meant to be at goal last Christmas. 
Sure parts of me feel a bit disappointed when I read in the forums people loosing 3kgs a week!
Maybe I need to pull my finger out and work out a bit harder.  Next week school is back and I will have more time to myself to work out more.  
My goal this week is to write out my weekly food menu.  (I don't have a printer) and write out the 9 weeks of menu's & recipes.
My other goal is to get into the 75kgs by following the menu from tomorrow on wards. I can do it.
Here is a stat of our world rating on weight gain.  If this doesnt make me peddle a little harder this week. 

The Top 30 Obese Nations

Rank  Countries  Amount  
# 1  United States:30.6% 
# 2  Mexico:24.2% 
# 3  United Kingdom:23% 
# 4  Slovakia:22.4% 
# 5  Greece:21.9% 
# 6  Australia:21.7% 
# 7  New Zealand:20.9% 
# 8  Hungary:18.8% 
# 9  Luxembourg:18.4% 
# 10  Czech Republic:14.8% 
# 11  Canada:14.3% 
# 12  Spain:13.1% 
# 13  Ireland:13% 
# 14  Germany:12.9% 
= 15  Portugal:12.8% 
= 15  Finland:12.8% 
# 17  Iceland:12.4% 
# 18  Turkey:12% 
# 19  Belgium:11.7% 
# 20  Netherlands:10% 
# 21  Sweden:9.7% 
# 22  Denmark:9.5% 
# 23  France:9.4% 
# 24  Austria:9.1% 
# 25  Italy:8.5% 
# 26  Norway:8.3% 
# 27  Switzerland:7.7% 
= 28  Japan:3.2% 
= 28  Korea, South:3.2%

Tuesday, July 5, 2011


Well I didn't make it to my goal of 75kgs by this weigh in.   I am sure if I weigh in tomorrow I will be there. I sort of lost my way this week after having being on a high, for having  a good size weight drop last week.

There seems to be a repeating pattern of "Something" I keep doing every weekend/start of the week.  I am not sure if being a little slack with my food on the weekend or doing increased exercise Sun-Tuesday shows a higher weigh in on Wednesdays compared to me weighing in on Thursdays.  Who knows!

Never mind because really at the end of the day, I am dropping down in weight not going up and my lifestyle has certainly changed.  I am feeling muscles and even bones now that I haven't felt for such a long time.  While I still have loads of jiggly bits there seems to be less padding.  I also figure if I do this at my pace rather than dropping huge numbers each week.  I am personally less likely to gain 5kgs in the minute I stop the program.

I found this week menu food not all that inspiring for me and with the school holidays - I didn't sit down and work out mine and my families meal plans for this week. Planning for me is the main thing.  If the food is there and I am hungry I will eat it.  If I haven't planned and I am hungry I will just grab food (not bad food) but the size of my meal and calories might push me over my daily calorie limit.  I wish that Michelle posted the weeks menu first thing on Thursday as I do our weekly food shopping mornings on Thursday.

I also had my sister 30th Birthday on Saturday and while I tried so hard not to blow out my calories for the day. At the same time it was hard because she had a "French themed" cocktail party with little nibbles, loads of beautiful french cheeses.  I was starving actually most of us was starving add a few glasses of Champers and I kind of lost count of my calories for the day. It was hard to make good food choices because there wasn't a lot to choice from.

I have also had very limited time to get to the gym and burn the calories up.  I have now completed two Cycle classes and just love it. But cry at the same time as its such a new challenge for my body but I love the end result. Gosh listen to me making excuses. (Insert slap to the head)..... Just stop it Felicity!

I am getting lots of people notice I have lost weight and I am finding it hard to accept the compliments because I was around this weight lost October. I need to break through the 75kgs to be able to really say this a new weight loss number on the scales for me.

With the School holidays being here - There are days when I want to go and hang out with my little man.  He went to the gym creche while I did a Circuit class the other day without any complaints.  Well except for him saying "Mum its 7am this is school wake up time".  When the alarm went off for us to get to gym by 9am.  From there we checked out the new Croydon Library and came home with 57 books.  Try carrying them when you have just done a work out.

Then we decided to have lunch at our local Cafe Barkley's.  I knew I could make reasonable healthy food choices here plus they make great coffee.   My little guy had the nachos and I had their yummy Eggs with spinach and salmon.  I think its called the Atlantic.  Anyway its usually smothered in Hollandaise sauce.  Being the new me - The good Felicity was saying just don't order it and the bad was "Oh you can burn it off at the gym".  So I asked for the sauce to be on the side.  I have never done that before and felt really in control.

So here is my yummy healthy after workout brunch.

I wish I could poach an egg like that - I have tried so many times.

This week has also seen me update my I.phone tunes.  I found out that alot of the Cardio tracks for the "Les Mills" classes are by a lady called "Venus Jones". Worth checking out on I.Tunes.

 I had a crappy night last night.  On my way to gym as I reversed out the drive way. Our new neighbour had parked his dark green car opposite our drive way. Where there is no street lighting.  We have a tricky drive way and being wet and raining plus his car being dark when I reversed out I could not see it due to the angle that I have to pull out of our drive.  Being in hubbies 4 day old work car that did not have reversing sensors I smashed into the side back door of my neighbours car and damaged the bumper of hubbies work car which has to be replaced. 

The thing is, I just rolled back while I put the car into 1st (Manual car) and it rolled/touched the other car in a soft spot of his door and it caved it in.

While of course I am happy that no one was hurt.  I am completely guttered as the excess on the car insurance  is $1500.00.   My tax return that is going into my bank account on Monday is $1500.  Not even 5 mins earlier I had said to hubby.  "Now before you go paying bills with that money on Monday - I want some new clothes".  We are also big time struggling with $'s due to work cut backs at hubbies work.  I really need to go back to work but that is another story!

So I was really angry and I am still really angry with myself.  I still went to gym even with red eyes. Every now and then I would remember what a stupid thing and waste of money I had just done and the tears would start flowing again.   I managed to burn off 900 and some angry at the time.  I was glad the new me still went to gym as the old me would have gone up to the super market grabbed a bottle of wine and some junk food and drowned my sorrows that way.  So I guess that was a positive thing!!!

Thursday, June 30, 2011

Happy Dance!!!!! 76.6kgs

Today is officially not weigh in day that was yesterday (77.2kgs) as of the 29th June.

I have to be honest and say for some reason (insert long moaning voice), on  Wednesdays, I weigh heavier than any other day of the week.  I knew and felt like I was a lot lighter so,  I weighed myself again today and in my sleepy haze of 7am I cursed the scales for being screwed up.  Until I realised it said 76.6kgs not 77.6kgs.

I actually can not really remember a time I was 76kgs - I remember way back in 1999 I was around this weight and hated everything about myself.  It was around that time I started taking a prescription medication to lose weight (you know the one - some call it legal speed).  It was terrible terrible stuff and I could only last a few days and then would have to take a break and sleep for a few days straight.  The upside to taking it was that my house was clean because I was so "Pumped up" and had to be doing something but I couldn't sleep and I was dam snappy!  I am amazed that my then boyfriend wanted to marry me! Lucky he did in 2000.

So what else has been happening.

  • I have reached all of my 1st month goals. 
  • To lose 5kgs. 
  •  Attempt my first cycle class. 
  • Up my level of fitness.
  •  To be able to row 2kms in under 10mins.
I can also add running to this list as I have now gone on to start running week 2.  Which is basically running for 1 1/2 mins walking for 2mins.  

I love love love cycle.  There it is out loud.  I went back to Pump last week and put my neck out but I still loved it and will be back next week.

I walked out of my first ever class as it was just not going to burn the calories and it was so not a circuit class.  It was like doing all style warm up exercises at a retirement home.  

I have had to pull out my old bra's etc that I had grown out of years ago and some are now too big........

I need to go shopping for new clothes.  I am still around a 14-16 a long way off 18/20 + that I used to be.

I have moments of "Man I look good!" to "Shit I am still fat and ugly!".  I was really surprised when I heard my innerself talking so badly to me.

I feel like the  Michelle Bridges program has finally "Clicked" this week.  While I have been chopping & changing some of the meals around its still working.

I know that my journey is going to be a lot slower than some of the other people on the challenge.  That's OK.  I need to live a little and eat some cake when its my Birthday without feeling guilty that " I must eat light" for the rest of the week, while beating my head against the wall.   I know now, that I need to just move on to the next day.

I am certainly a lot fitter but I know there is still a long way to go there.  I am still struggling with pain but with the help of the Osteopath I am seeing we have the pain under control.

My goal this week is to be in the 75kgs - Far out!!!! 

I think I had stalled my weight loss because I was basically loosing the weight that I had already lost last year and couldn't see beyond that.  Hope that makes sense.  So now that I am in my new weight loss numbers I finally feel like I am now working towards my new goal.

Challenges coming up school holidays, snacking and lack of "Me" exercise time.  What time I do get at the gym will have to be used burning up calories - Because my puppy needs to be walked most nights I have to share my evenings with her and let hubby and puppy go for walkies.  I hope that maybe I can get a few days in walking her during the day with my son so that I can go to gym at night.

You will need to tilt your head to the side for this one as the photo is the wrong way up!

This is my latest fav meal.  Its from Michelle Bridges cookbook its Tuna mornay and I just love it.  Simple easy and very filling.  I don't bother having it with rice anymore.  I just use Iceberg lettuce to wrap it up in.

Well must head to bed - I have a boot camp style circuit class in the morning that I want to get to in time for.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Living every day a better version of Myself!

This is the mantra of Michelle's live video this week.  It's about not comparing ourselves to others. It's about eating well, exercising and being the best you can be every day.  No make lame excuses about why your going to eat bad or not exercise.

I think I pretty much do that every day already.  I just need my body to get up and be the best that my brain thinks it can be.

I have had a very busy weekend.  Hubby has been working or out for most of the weekend, so I didn't hit the gym.  I took my puppy for an hour walk today, not really a big calorie burner but 300 cals is better than sitting on my butt.  Plus she just adores getting out and about.

Today I thought I would post about some I.phone Apps that I have downloaded that I have been using to mix up my sessions at gym and also start running.

The first one is called "Get running couch to 5km". It is by BenJohn Barnes.  I think it was around $2.
It was one of the very few beginning to  run apps that was in Kms not miles.  It is really really easy to use.

What I love:  There is a lovely ladies voice.  She only chats to me when its time to start running or its 30secs to walking.  I love that it works with my own I.pod music.   I think its def a great one to have.

I can't find anything that I dislike about it this app. It's easy to use. The first week is walk for 1 1/2 mins and then running for one minute.  It automatically updates when you complete your run and tells you when you will need to run again.  If you miss that day.  Its all good.  It resets the next day for you.

The other App that I am liking this week.  Is Spin Campanion by Mathieu Rothier again this app was around $2.  I think there was a free older version but I thought I would try this one out .

This one was a bit more fancy.  I think its a good all rounder cardio app.  It could easily be used for Spin, treadmill, Xtrainer - Indoor and out door activities.

There are a few things you need to set up at the start like where or which file you want to use to get the music from.  Ok this is tricky to explain.   Depending on the heart rate or speed the app is going at, it will chose from your music file the right song to go with the workout.  Very very funky.  That is why I think this is a great overall app.

What I didn't like was a bell like sound when it was time to amp up your workout. Only a small thing.

I like using this app when I am on the Xtrainer.  I love how it selects the right songs and it helps to push you a little bit harder during your work out.

The last one (or middle) one in the photo - Is a sleep sound app.  I haven't tried it to be honest it drove me nuts in the 30secs I was listening to it.  I think it was free.

I am hoping to spend some more time searching I.phone apps for training this week.

Hope these might come in handy for anyone reading my little Ole blog!

Friday, June 17, 2011

A life changing moment week and I'm finally down to 78.4kgs

This week has been some what emotional week for me.  I get very down when my back and hip are letting me down and I am in constant pain.  I am not a very uplifting person to be around. Even the dog struggles to give me attention!

It stops me from being focused and being able to gym properly.  Its like having square wheels on a car.

However, something happened last Saturday night that I wasn't going to post about but now a week later, I realise that I need to share it because what "nearly" happened was life changing and I felt I didn't get the support from my husband. (I will go into that later).

Last Saturday night driving home from my girls night out at Crown.  I was in the centre lane driving down the Eastern Freeway heading outbound back home.  As I was driving along in hubbies car.  I could see a head of me a red car parked in the center of an upcoming bridge.  It is Belford Road bridge its a quiet bridge that is used to get to the Kew golf club.  Anyway, I remember thinking.  Why are the cars banked up on the bridge.

As I got closer I saw that was nearly my life rushing ahead of me.

I man came to the bridge wearing a grey hooding covering his head and he had a huge rock in his hand and lent over the bridge aimed at me in the centre lane.   I can't remember at that very point what I said. I know it wasn't clean enough for me to post here. (Even writing this my heart is racing at a million miles and feel teary).

I do remember thinking selfish prick and F@#k he is going to throw that at me.  I can still remember seeing the image of his face looking at me!

I knew there was a car to my right - I had no idea what was to my left but I just swerved into the left lane.  I remember seeing the car to the right also swerve to the emergency lane.

I felt sick and angry when I got to the other side and realised what just could have happened.

Being in hubbies car I had hands free phone and called the Police.   I got the man from Emergency services and I doubt anything could be done but he took my details.  Some of the questions were just stupid like did you see the rock, was he drunk or drug effected?  I was like "Buddy I didn't want to stick around to see if he threw it or what it was but he was aiming at me and looking down at me".

I came home and was ready to burst into tears.  Hoping my husband would lend me a shoulder but alas like every other moment in my life.  I was let down.  He was more interested in getting my I.phone problem sorted out.   He just didn't get it!

Then I got angry with hubby.  I felt that he had no concept of the fact someone just could have killed me and my phone is the last thing to worry about.  I guess to men - I am OK and the phone isnt.  Maybe that's the side of the family my son gets his Autism from.  Who knows.

I haven't been able to sleep all week without seeing at some stage a man wearing a grey hoodie over his face. I have had huge horrific car accident "death" type dreams all week.

Most of the week I have struggled with emotional eating and I know see why.  I am doing this journey on my own.  I know I don't get the support at home and I sometimes feel like the 3 of us are living under the same roof but traveling separately.   Something to work on I guess.

So I am sorry this post is a bit of a downer but I needed to get it off my chest and being my blog I guess this is the best place.  I realise why I emotionally eat.  Especially after last weekend.

Selfish prick!

Monday, June 13, 2011

The sooooo loooong weekend.

My little boy had a "Pupil free day" from school on Friday.  Add that to a 3 day long weekend and then on Tuesday he had another day off due to a hospital appointment.  I feel like my whole week has been all over the place.

I will be honest and say straight up that I am struggling this week.  I need to get my act together.
I feel lost due to my hip playing up and not being able to push myself. Hell! I can't even sit on a freaking bike and peddle at the moment.

I saw the replacement chiro last Thursday and while he was good he simply didn't know how to adjust my hip. My lovely Chiropractor actually pulls at my hip and we do some exercises to release the pressure off the nerve. This guy just used a gun thing and I feel like nothing has been done.

I feel defeated and I haven't been to gym since a poor workout that I did on Saturday.

I am also finding it hard to burn 500 calories at the gym.  I can normally smash 900 easy but since dropping to a lower weight. I adjusted my heart monitor and now I have to work even freaking harder......... I know I should be happy.

I have had birthdays, lunches and special dinners this week.  Look! I know that is life and maybe I should have planned it a bit better but I didn't and now all I can do is hope that tomorrow the scales are the same or lower and JFDI as Michelle would say!............

Saturday, June 4, 2011

I have hit a curve ball

Man ......Where have the days and weeks gone.

I am still here.  Some days I am so busy burning calories at gym that it leaves me rushing around to do my every day stuff and falling asleep in a heap at the end of the day.  So no blogging.  Naughty me.

This week has seen me take on so many new classes at gym as well at Boxing session with Matt at the Yarra Road Primary school in Croydon.  I this week I have started the couch to 25km run.  I downloaded a fantastic App to my I.phone called, "Get Running".  It was the only one that I found to be in Kms rather than miles. You listen to your own music but a lady counts down your warm up time and then tells you when to run.  Its amazing and I can't believe how much calories get burnt up from running.  Fingers crossed my body keeps being kind to me.

Also this week I added two Circuit classes to my training which really amp'd things up.

You would think this week that my weight would have just melted away. Aggh sadly no my weight has gone up.  Will have to wait and see how things go on Wednesdays weigh in.  I know my belly feels flatter and I'm feeling more toned.   I just wish the scales would move.

I bought a running magazine.  I was attracted to the front cover (as per photo) of the lady with one leg.
I figure if she can run with 1.2 legs then I can get my fat butt running with two good legs.  Lots of motivating reading in there and all of the upcoming fun runs etc.

And I will leave you with tonights dinner.  Super easy chicken with a teaspoon of Kecap Manus rubbed all over. Then you slice up a granny smith apple, (however, I would use a pink lady next time). Take the chicken out when cooked leave to rest and throw the apples in to carmel in the sauce.  Serve with greens and mashed sweet potato that is mashed with no butter or milk.


I am totally amazed to see these numbers on the scales.

This program is really getting me motivated and I have even been trying new classes at gym.

So far my body has held up and although I have plenty of aches. My hip is hanging in there for me. (touch wood).

I have enjoyed most of the food and some not so much.  I could have probably lost more weight if I had followed each day menu without changing things. For example I had the steak with salsa two nights in a row because basically thats what I had in the fridge.  I really need to be more organised and wonder how people are coping, that work and have children/families to look after as well.

Today is sort of the "last chance" workout. I was pumped to get to gym because I have started the "couch to 25km run" program, that I downloaded the app to my I.phone it is fantastic.

However, My son was home sick today and instead of beating myself up about it I put on Michelle's "Crunch time" DVD.  Sadly it only burnt up 250cals.  Not huge numbers the day before weigh in.

If I think back that only a little over a week a go and on the Sunday (22nd May) I think it is. I weighed 82.4kgs.  Today, 78.6kgs, So that is a loss of 3.8kgs in a little over a week.  I haven't so far craved for anything as long as I don't let my self get hungry from not being prepared.  It helps that my body hasn't caved in yet.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Day 2

Oh my I am feeling my muscles today that have been on vacation for so long.

Even thought I go to gym most days, clearly from doing the pump class and the extra running the muscles are hurting baby!.  It's mostly a good hurt.  The kind of hurt that when you drop something on the floor you groan to pick it up or when its all too hard.  I use my toes to pick whatever is on the floor up.

Ok I weighed myself today and was doing a happy dance.  I loved my scales today 80.8kgs. That is a freaking loss of 1.7 and frankly I never want to see 81 or 82+kgs ever again.  My aim is never to regain.

Today started off pretty much the same as yesterday. Except for the aches and pains.

Same breakfast and lunch as yesterday.

Dinner Roast veggies salad with chickpeas.

I changed a few things around.  I roasted the chickpeas with garlic for 4 mins.  I used lemon to water down the yogurt instead of water. Added some asparagus and mixed lettuce.  It was nice but I didn't like the zucchini.  I think I would have enjoyed it more with 97% fat free balsamic dressing.

The chickpeas were something nice for a change.

I also ended up having a small tin of tuna with a handful of mixed lettuce with some 20grms of cottage cheese for a snack around 4.30pm as I was starving out of my brain.

I did a quiet session at gym today.  Not realising we already have our first weigh in tomorrow. I managed to burn up 700 cals.

I am not too worried about tomorrows weigh in as its only been 2 days on the program.

If this mornings loss already is anything to go by then I should lose more weight than I originally aimed for.

Day 1

Weighed myself cause I just can't help myself.  Hopefully, by the end of this challenge, this old habit will have gone.  So day 1: -  I weighed in at 82.5 kgs.

I started breakfast off with my usual cereal.  As I figure, its taken me 41 years to finally eat cereal every morning after years of eating a hot breakfast or toast loaded with peanut butter.

I headed off to gym to do my cardio workout as close to Michelle's plan as possible but my main aim was just to burn the calories.  A friend of mine Tracey, who is also doing the Michelle Bridges 12 wbt had posted on Face book that she was doing the pump class at 10.30am.  I was worried that if i did pump with my old track record that I would put my hip and shoulder out and that would be me for the rest of the challenge.

But ..................................................... I decided to give it a good.

My old friend - I adore pump classes, sure there was times that I thought, OMG "There goes my knee or my hip". I loved every minute of it and will be making it part of my Mondays as long as my body holds out.

Anyway back to the program.  Sorry about the quality of photos - Im no Donna Hay!

Lunch was a surprise I honestly thought I would be left starving after this but I wasn't.  So its turkey with cranberry on corn/rice cakes with a spread of avocado.  It was meant to have snow pea sprouts on it but I don't ever remember I liked them and at $3 a packet, I wasn't about to find out the hard way.

As I missed having a morning snack - by 3pm I was hungry again and had a "Body Wise bar".  They are kind of like a healthy muesli bar and around 130 cals.

By about 5pm while making my son his dinner it really set in.  Well, I was thinking "What I had for lunch would be a snack on any other given day".  I was so hungry.

Dinner was meant to be Salmon Stir-fry with Chinese broccoli & ginger.  I went with around 130grms of chicken instead of a sad looking 90grms of salmon.  I was starving!  I ended up loading up with lots of Bok choy but kept with the actual recipe, except for the Olive oil which I replaced with chicken stock. Olive oil is around 120 cals per table spoon, compared to 10 cals for 100mls of ready made chicken stock. Trust me I would much rather have a diet yogurt for 90 cals than a table spoon of olive oil in my dinner.

Oh boy sorry about the grubby plate photo.  Didn't pay attention to that.

I ended up having a "for Me" yogurt after dinner at 90 cals.

I burnt just under 900 cals with my work out sessions today.  Pump doesn't burn a lot but its great for toning and burning calories for the rest of the day.

Dinner was meant to be salmon stir-fry with chinese broccoli & ginger.  I went with around 130grms of

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Today is -

The last day of my old life as I know it.

Today I finally, got that feeling back again.  The one that I know that I can do it and that my body isn't going to let me down.

Today, I ran 1km in 7.21.  I can't remember the last time I ran so long.  I was always the kid who had asthma and the one time I did run the cross country at school ended up on oxygen afterwards as I couldn't breath.

I remember loving running.  I have always been envious of people who can run and look really good while they are running.  You know how some people have a really good technic and physically don't look unco.  I look unco! But hopefully I will get there.  Like the times I have run for 3 or 4 mins straight, I get this amazing buzz. I can't explain it.  I just love it!

To say I am "pumped' about starting the program tomorrow and finally achieving my goal weight, is an understatement.  I feel like a little kid who can't sleep the night before a special event..  My brain is in the right place, everything is all go.  My body, well each day we will see what happens.

I know its not going to be an easy task but it will be fun and I am already loving all the wonderful cyber friends that have inspired me and motivated me so far.  I can't wait to finally met some of these lovely ladies.

So today I say good bye to my "treat" foods that I used while I was on my last weight loss challenge.  My weekly splurge of sushi, coffee and the newspaper!

I am not sure how I am going to live without my large skinny latte.  I know I could add it some how until my 300 snack/drink allowance or maybe just work out a little longer and burn the calories.   Sushi well my dear friend at nearly 150cals or more per roll.  You can just wait for me on the other side.   I like my coffee on shopping mornings (Thursdays), but I think what I might do is just downsize (insert a big sigh!).  

I have taken my before photos.  Ones in my undies and ones with shorts on.  I might show them at a later date.  Depending! if there is an improvement.  

Some new goals, I have been thinking about : Buying myself a "Brand name" gym wear.  As much as I love my Target trackie dacks.  I would love to be a stylish gym chick.   I plan on putting a smaller sized pair of jeans on lay by.  So by the time I have paid them off I should be at that size.  Or secretly, I hope that I might have to change them for an even smaller pair.

So tomorrow, 23rd of May will be the first day of breaking old habits and living the life that I imagine my life should have always been.  Setting my sights on a new future because I know an amazing change is possible and I can see it so clearly now.