12 week challenge: 25th August & I still hate my bathroom scales.

Well I guess that's what you get when you weigh yourself everyday. I know that I am like 90% of women that weigh themselves everyday and basically the numbers on the scales determines what sort of day I am going to have.   Well today I was ready to throw them across the bathroom actually i did and scared my poor husband. and he ticked me off for being so naughty.

I had kicked arse at the gym yet again yesterday went to bed feeling hungry and I had only eaten 100 Cal's more than the previous day but still burnt off way over 1,000 exercise calories. So I should have lost weight - Right? Well nooooo I put on 800 grams. What the?

In the old days ha ha listen to me "Old Days"! I would have scoffed my face for the whole day and swore that the next day would be a new one. How things have changed. I know that I am eating well maybe I am not actually eating enough and I will seriously be thinking of seeing a dietitian next week if I haven't dropped 3 kilos this week after Mother nature has gone on holidays for another 3 weeks. Actually that brings me to another subject that I will post about. But we will have to ask all Males to leave the room before I post.

Anyhooo, I went off to gym - Felt mothers guilt as I left my son crying at school (Happens most days) as he doesn't want me to leave. Rushed off and made it to an early morning Pump Class.   I did the class and was surprised to read that I had only burnt off 300cals. I barely broke out a sweat once.

I realised in pump class how far my fitness has come. I found the class very easy and lots of exercises that I either couldn't do cause my boobs and belly would be in the way I could easily manage today plus lots more. Still struggled with lunges. Oh how I hate those things.   It was a great weight work out but no good for the calorie burning. I had always thought that Pump was an awesome calorie burner. Mm mm so then I went down to the gym and did some cardio until I burnt off 1,000 calories.

It wasn't really the plan at first I was going to be happy with 600 but once I got there I was like lets get to 700 and so on until I was knackered and my brain had gone off to think about meal planning and organising the house. That's when I knew it was time to give up.

Came home showered and made myself a chicken and veg stir fry.

Will see what the scales bring me tomorrow. However - I did take some photo's and I wished that I had taken more of me at the start but I have always hated having my photo taken as I always kept saying in my head. I don't want to be remembered fat and when I lose weight then I will have more photos. Hahaha Always behind the camera instead of the front. Things will change. I have changed.

Even though the scales haven't moved for such a long time and I will have to work out what is going on. Cause I hate that I don't drink wine anymore, eat rice, spuds, cheese so many other carbs etc and the weight isn't just dropping off. I have given so much of myself to get this weight off.

I don't get that feeling of hunger anymore and I certain don't suffer from low blood sugar hunger pains anymore. But there are some days I could just stuff my face into a bag of CC and Hoover them all up.

Like today my son eat hot BBQ chicken most days - I pick one up from the supermarket on the way home from school as he pretty much eats the minute he gets home to a few minutes before bed. Oh lordy the smell of that juicy hot chicken with lots of tasty & I mean tasty chicken skin. Oh its just so hard not to rip off a leg on the way home from the super market and scoff it down while driving.   For the most of the time I have been in control some say obsessive. I think just changing my life so that I can live a little harder and longer.

Wholly cow that was about one month into the challenge.